Updated: Feb 1, 2019
Washington, DC, a place where everyone wants to visit and/or live. A place where you think you've really "made it" if you live/work there but for me, that couldn't be further from the reality of actually living there.
What the DC Metro area did for me
I moved to Fairfax, VA (roughly around 30 minutes outside of DC), in 2013. I moved there as naive as could be, without a care in the world to attend college at George Mason University. Little did I know moving there was going to be the most stressful, life changing 6 years of my life. I'm a firm believer that mindset really determines your happiness wherever you live and that you can truly be happy no matter where you are living as long as you have gratitude and the right mindset. However, for some reason I just couldn't focus while living in the DC area. For the 6 years I lived there I had amazing jobs including working for the Department of Defense, I attended a top ranked school, but I was completely miserable. Why?!
"One thing people don't realize about the DC Metro area is how toxic it truly is..."
What People Don't Realize about the DC Area
One thing people don't realize about the DC Metro area is how toxic it truly is. Like I said above, I'm a firm believer in mindset and gratitude for anywhere you live but I had a VERY tough time making and keeping friends there. Mind you, I'm an extremely sociable person and I make friends everywhere I go; however, the DC area is NOT for sensitive empaths. I felt very suffocated and trapped there because I could literally feel the toxicity in the air. The mindset there is go, go, go, no one takes time to breathe or relax and mental health issues are very prominent especially in the affluent areas. There is a LOT of narcissism, pretentiousness, and drugs...literally everywhere. Even the most innocent looking people did drugs there and trying to find friends there who don't drink or do drugs was nearly impossible. I've had this conversation with multiple people who still live or used to live in that area and they all completely agree. One friend who moved away before I did said, "you really grow when you leave that place," and I'm beginning to realize that.
You have the interns or people who work on the Hill and act like they're too good for anyone and then you have everyone else who's favorite first line is "so what do you do?" as in, what do you do for a living? Yes, that is the first question anyone and everyone asks you there and if they don't like your answer yes, they will straight up turn around and walk away from you. My best friend and I no longer live in the area but we both recently were talking about how miserable we became while living there and we turned into people that we really weren't because the energy there is extremely cold, uninviting, and jaded. You can feel it in the air.
I never changed who I was inside while living there, I more so became jaded and depressed. Mainly due to my health issues associated with mold but a lot of my health issues also lingered on for much longer than they should have due to my depression. Although I had great jobs and went to a great school, I was miserable, mainly because I felt like I could never truly thrive there. Everyone was always competition with everyone there and if you didn't work for an elite company, on the hill, or for the government, you were a "nobody" according to DC/NoVA (Northern Virginia) terms. I worked for the government and it wasn't for me. Not at all. You know the stories you hear in the news regarding sexual harassment by men in politics and government who abuse their power? Yes, those stories are 100% real and I never believed they were real until it happened to me. I will eventually write a separate blog post on this topic as I do wish to raise awareness on this issue in the near future.
"Bloom where you are planted" is one of my favorite quotes. But is it possible to bloom in an area that's too toxic for everyone?! I have truly never been a person to blame the area; however, with DC metro area, I am, because you truly don't realize how corrupt our government really is until you work for it, you see how the men treat their wives, their employees, the amount of drugs and drinking they do, and suddenly, you wake up to the sick reality that it is. The TV shows you watch where people in politics and government do drugs and cheat are all based off true stories. I remember one time watching my boss do a line of coke in his car in the parking garage before walking into work one morning. Yes, this is the reality of that area. Drugs are everywhere you don't even have to ask. I stayed in that job and in that area much longer than I should have because I knew it looked good on my resume and didn't want to leave behind this glamorous life everyone assumed I was living just because I had a great job. That couldn't have been further from the truth. Finally once I had my spiritual awakening, I started looking for ways out and how to follow my true path and purpose.
I buried my purpose, passion, gifts, and intuition while living there because I never felt like I truly fit in. I wanted people to be happy and get along and I learned very fast that doesn't happen there.
I'll never forget the very first week I lived there I was on the metro, I looked at a lady and said "Hi, how are you?" and she looked at me with complete disgust. I remember balling my eyes out crying calling my parents telling them I was leaving and coming back home. LOL!
Regardless of the toxicity, I took away SO many lessons from that area. I learned how to stand up for myself and become assertive for the first time in my life, went through an INTENSE spiritual awakening, and truly found who I was right before I left. I manifested it into existence that I wanted to leave that area roughly around a year before I actually did and I finally made it happen. I finally made the decision to move to Dallas, Texas to pursue my passion, purpose, and dreams of doing what I've always wanted to do, not just something that looked good on a resume like I did in DC. The growth that I endured while living in the DC Metro area was astounding and I never would have grown as much as I did as a person and I not lived there. I am immensely grateful for all that it taught me and blessed. Heres a big THANK YOU, and lesson, for DC teaching me what I really needed. <3
"Regardless of the toxicity, I took away SO many lessons from that area..."